Day 2 : not smoking

Day 2

Clearer eyes , less wheezing, more minutes in the day , my car stinks , I’m finding lighters everywhere!

My smoking had become so unmanageable in the weeks building up to my desperate urge to quit , I remember losing a fresh pouch of tobacco and needing to buy another in a matter of minutes , spending a total of $80 in one day !!

This time seems different to my last attempts , I’m not completely obsessed with the fact I’m not smoking , that I’m somehow missing out , how much I actually love those little lung busters and how they somehow always make everything seem better !!! . I’m settled with the idea of not smoking , I’m determined, I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired , I feel like I’ve got no other way , to continue to smoke will eventually kill me , it’s like the smoke screen has been smashed and I’m seeing and feeling my smoking habit for what it truely is !!!!!

I found coffee to be a really great condiment with a fag , which meant as my smoking increased so did my coffee intake , I would experience, nausea, dizziness and fatigue by lunchtime most days , I’m sur the copious amounts of perfume did not help my situation.

Day 1 .

What the fuck have I done !! My head starts to race the moment I open my eyes . The last 3 days have all been in preparation for today . Today is the day I quit cigarettes !!!! Reasons being ; I was struggling to breathe , any funds left over all went to smokes , my skin appeared dull and kinda grey , my teeth were taking the brunt of my addiction , financially smoking was costing me a small fortune, and just to top it off , although my list of reasons could continue ad infinite; I’d been noticing these fine lines appearing slowly but surely on my top lip caused directly by smoking ! I believe the look can be referred to a cats sphincter. Yep I was reaping all the rewards of a heavy smoker !!!!!! No matter what happens today , I’d promised myself not to pick up a cigarette ( easier said than done when I’d been smoking close to 30 cigarettes a day for the last decade ). So my plan , keep busy !!!!

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